littlefluffie

Since I am bored and have no work to do, I will, of course, spend the time productively by updating my journal. Life is a bit boring at the moment yet very busy. I've got lots of academic projects on the go, not the least of which is my Doctorate which is progressing slowly. I'm planning to be done by next year June, so hopefully that goes smoothly. I've recently finished my first article which I presented at a seminar recently, and I've been invited to speak at a conference next month. Very exciting but also very stressful. All this stress has not left much room for proper leisure pursuits. Things like 9gag and series have filled the times

I have a few confessions to make. It's been some time since I've posted a journal on DeviantArt, and for a very good reason. Since I came back from Berlin, I haven't really been myself. I've had bouts of depression which would eventually pass, but they kept on happening. About three weeks ago I was struck by another bout, and what I'd usually do is go on DeviantArt and torture myself with emotional imagery. I happened on the profile of one artist and saw something. He was the most beautiful man I'd ever seen in my entire life. Things started happening. I started thinking about what it would be like to be in a relationship with another guy,

It is 5 days until I return triumphantly to South Africa after my 6 months in Germany, and I thought I should take the time to account for my time here. What exactly have I achieved in the last 6 months? Firstly, my time in Germany has been easier than I thought, and that surprised me. I was bracing myself for hectic Heimweh, or homesickness, especially here by month #2, but it didn't hit, at least not until the Soccer World Cup... I couldn't help but be swept into the fever and I was sad I wasn't able to be part of the gees in South Africa. Nevertheless, it wasn't that much of an issue for me in general. I survived living on my own, with li